Before I start this post I want to apologise if you think my first post was a bit too cheerful. But I know what it’s like being in such a dark place on the brink of life or death, and I believe the only thing that keeps you going is something that makes you smile, or if you’re not the smiling type, something that at least brings a little light to your darkness, so that’s what I aim to do with this blog. So I may be cheerful, not to offend, but to brighten your worlds, even if it’s only a light as small as one birthday candle. So this post is going to be about thankfulness. You may not think you have anything to be thankful for because life sucks. But you do. We all do. It could be a great sister, a good friend, people if you have them. It could be the stars in the sky you’re thankful for, because they’re just so beautiful. It could be pizza or chocolate cake. It could be music. It could be something you’re passionate about like playing soccer (that’s not something I can do, so if you can, be thankful, not everyone has been blessed with athletic abilities. Same goes for other talents). Whatever it is, there is something I know you’re thankful for. So what I want you to do is think of one thing you’re thankful for and write it down. That’s it. Just write it down and think about how you’re thankful for it. So often when we’re in a dark place we forget the things we have to be thankful for, and focus instead of all the things that darken our world. I know when I was considering suicide, I focused on nothing but my pain and my problems for so long and forgot about everything else. But we shouldn’t forget about everything else. By being thankful you’re getting to see bits of light in the dark. And that’s always a good thing. So be thankful about something today.
You are amazing. You are good looking. You are not a failure. You are valuable. Tell yourself positive things. I struggled with the monsters inside my head that always brought me down. I struggled with other people telling me things that I never should’ve believed like you’re never going to get anyone. Who would want to date someone like you? Negative thoughts kept pressing down my brain, leaving me feeling like an absolute wreck. And I was. And you may be too. And wishing you could just escape from all of the negativity. But the key to overcoming negativity is with positivity. So tell yourself positive things. I know, I can already hear you saying but I’m not amazing, I’m not good looking, I’m not this, I’m not that. You know what that is? That’s your thoughts feeding you lies, even if you didn’t think they are. I truly did believe I was failure for a few years before I realised that it’s not true at all. So tell yourself that your negative thoughts aren’t true and switch them around to make them positive. Keep feeding yourself with positive thoughts. Say aloud to yourself I am amazing, I am valuable, throughout the next few days and then you’ll find yourself believing and feeling like you are. I know it sounds super cheesy, and you might be thinking I’m not going to do something as cheesy as that. But give it a try. You’ll be surprised by the results.