So remember two post ago I asked you to do something crazy and I said I was. Guess what! I did. I talked to my crush for over an hour! 🙂 Anyway, it led me to this next post. Most of the posts so far have all been about you, which is great, because hopefully it has helped you realise that when you feel as dark inside as your world outside, maybe even more so, you realise, there’s still flickers of light in you that haven’t gone out, or maybe you have new ones burning. But this time, I want you to focus on someone other than yourself. I want you to make someone else feel better with your words. Maybe you ain’t much of a talker like me, then message them. Say a compliment, maybe tell them something you appreciate about them, maybe tell them you think they’re cool or something. But I don’t want you to choose someone you’d normally say it to. I want you to pick someone you’ve admired but maybe haven’t really told them you do. You may think my idea is stupid. But you know what? You might just make their day. And if you’re wondering what about me? What about all the stuff I’m feeling and going through? This will improve your happiness. Trust me. When you make others feel good, it makes you feel really good. There’s something magical about letting someone know there’s someone out there who admires them. And you know what, you can be in charge of passing out that magic. I think one of the reasons the world is so dark is because there’s not enough people building each other up and not enough people realising how loved they are, because not enough people are telling them. So tell people. Sprinkle love around like fairy dust, because it’s the thing that makes life magical!
Last year I made (can’t say wrote since it has no lyrics) a song called “Buried Deep” after someone close to me attempted to overdose. And do you know what the horrible part of it was. I never knew. I never knew it had crossed their mind. I never knew they had feelings buried so deep, festering overtime till it came out in an attempted act. That itself, was the most hurtful part of it all. The fact that I loved them so hard and yet I never knew. And this is why, my dear friends, I’m asking you to tell someone close to you how you feel. Don’t keep things buried deep, festering, without anyone to vent it out to. Please tell someone, before they’re left as broken as I was that day. I know you don’t want to tell people how you feel. I know you’re scared of how they’ll react. But you know what? You’ll be hurting them more in the long run if you don’t tell them. So do. Please do tell someone. I beg you. I don’t want others to experience what I went through. Please.
So you’re considering suicide, and that’s a big thing to be considering. But there’s something I’d beg you to do before it’s too late. Do something absolutely crazy. Something that absolutely terrifies you, but you know you’d love to do. If you decide after all to end your life, when you think really hard, will you find nothing but blank pages staring back at you of things you could’ve done, things you have yet to do. So do something crazy before its too late. Colour in those blank pages. Like one of my favourite quotes says “one day your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure it’s worth watching.” Maybe you’ve always wanted to go on a roller coaster but haven’t because it seems scary, go do that. Do some thing that’s might have others saying “I didn’t think I’d ever see the day I’d see you do something like that.” Maybe you’ve always wanted to go overseas, go do that, or if you have no money, open up google maps and street view Paris, and pretend you’re on holiday, or just book a night in your local motel and act like a tourist. Do something crazy. Something that is not normal for you, but something that you’ve always wanted to do. And you know what? I’m going to join you on your crazy quest. I have always been terrified of boys. No jokes. In fact I had one tell me once, “I don’t bite.” Obviously, they don’t, but I’ve always been somewhat afraid of them anyway (hence my 20 year single status). Now, there’s this boy I like and well, I’ve decided to do something crazy seeing as Valentine’s Day is coming up. I’m actually for the first time ever going to message a guy I like and see what happens. So since I’m doing something crazy, so can you. Do some thing crazy before you even think about ending the life you have. There’s still so much living to be done, so do it before the last of the life you have leaks out of you.